Thursday, December 30, 2010
slice of life
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
Ghosts
I am learning about my parents, their lives before I was born, dad’s friends in the Navy, through old bills and letters and photos. I learned dad’s Navy buddy named his son after him. This stuff had been in the house a long time, but mom said leave things alone, as did dad, and as an obedient child, I did not rummage. So now I am looking at old photos of people who were dear to my folks, and I don’t know a thing about them. Who is that family in front of a Christmas tree without a mom in the photo? Whose 40s wedding? The sailor with the tattoos in Japan? The dancing lady in the pasties and a scarf? Those handsome dogs? The men in the Japanese jazz bar?
Label the past. Talk to your parents.
I found the ornaments which are in my childhood pictures. More importantly, in Wayne's childhood portraits, which mean they are a good ten years older than I am. so glad I bothered to sort and save. I nearly just let them go.
Monday, November 1, 2010
Progress?
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
Autumn, where are you?
Just as I finished, there was a snow flurry. Snow?! I still need to have Larry mulch the roses and button up the rest of the yard. Oh yeah, the big maple still is full of green leaves, she hasn't even turned red yet! A big snow storm will break her branches that way.
Now I have to change my clothes, I always feel "tickly" after I've been walking around insects. Comes from a wasp crawling up my pants leg when I was a teen. No, no sting, but a severe and lingering fear of creeping flying things.
Sunday, October 17, 2010
Christmas cards
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
Landmines
Monday, October 11, 2010
Slogging
Friday, October 1, 2010
The Intangible Aura of Material Goods
Sunday, September 26, 2010
Kitty kitty
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
Mountains of Crap
Monday, August 9, 2010
No news is not good news
Thursday, June 17, 2010
Home Again.
Sunday, May 16, 2010
Been a While.
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
I'd call it Improvement, but we saw what happened last time.
Friday, April 9, 2010
What? No, no more.
Friday, March 5, 2010
Life and stuff.
Enjoy life, and if want you want isn't coming to you, get off your duff and go find it. Whatever it is. You don't need things, but if things make you happy, go for it. travel, or not. But laugh, laugh, laugh!
Open your eyes, open your heart. Love the world around you, for it is an amazing place, and you are an amazing piece of it. A plain life can be as joyful as a glamorous or exciting one, as long as you live it with spirit. Never let a day go by when you aren't thankful for the air you breathe and the heart which beats inside you. Find the wonder of the dawn, the glory of the moonlight. Or just enjoy a good movie and some delicious popcorn. Dance, even if it is only in your heart.
Okay, enough of the hokum. But I mean it. Don't overthink it, do it.
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
One day at a time.
I told him to take his nieces to Hot Topic and buy them B-Day gifts. Two of them are turning 13! And a un-B-Day gift for the third one.
Monday, February 22, 2010
Damn Cancer
I don't check my emails at night and have been having kinks in my wifi. I checked this morning. Kim has very much taken a turn for the worse. She's not been eating, and they cannot feed her via an IV as that only feeds the cancer cells. She cannot get up or turn over by herself, far too weak to consider more chemo. Tom, her husband, says she got much worse last night. She barely acknowledges the presence of visitors, and cannot talk beyond a quiet grunt. Her cognition is not what it should be, not even considering the pain meds.
MyLarry went to work this morning to talk to his dispatcher. That's when I read the email concerning Kim's turn. I called, we got him on a flight as soon as we could. He grabbed his pack from the truck, and tossed in a few clothes, he's traveling in his Central work shirt and clothes! (Plus, Yikes on same day fares). His sister Wendy will pick him up in Ohio adn they will drive to WV. I see there is a big storm rolling through, but Larry is a professional driver, he can plow through anything. The planes? who knows? I do hope they make it before Kim passes. She could leave us any moment now.
Kim is six months older than I am. She has an 11 year old daughter, and a loving husband. How terrible for all of them, for all of us.
I had to stay behind because I was up here in Ogden, and truly we can't really afford this unexpected trip. Oh, we can pay for it, and all our bills will be paid, but it is a crunch. Larry will lose a week of pay, and we have the Hawaii bills due now. Crap, huh? And if there is a funeral, we likely will not be able to attend. Which I mind for the family, but not for the funeral itself. I abhor funerals. Too, too many in my life these past ten years.
Saturday, February 6, 2010
Improvement.
Monday, February 1, 2010
Cancer is Eating my Family, Part Deux
Last night he got a call from his little sister, Aletha. Kim, his big sister, is still in the hospital. She has ovarian cancer, and has had complications from the surgeries. her intestines are twisted and not healing properly, there are tumors pinching under her kidneys. she isn't passing waste, either solid or liquid, it is all backing up. The doctors have done a couple surgeries, but she needs more, and is too fragile to handle it. She'd die. The cancer needs to be treated with chemo, soon. She is too fragile for chemo, she'd die. If she can't pass waste and process the toxins, she will die.
Crap.
Cancer sucks.
Aletha told Larry he should get on a plane if he wants to see Kim, but that isn't possible right this minute. I don't know if I should go too. I want to support him, but I also don't want to detract from his visit focused on his family.
Crap.
Crap, crap, crap.
Sunday, January 31, 2010
Not so Happy Birthday
A friend's sister lost her little baby girl early this morning. An online friend, but one whom I have been communicating with for several years now. I interact with her more than I do with family. Watching the pregnancy, the excitement, the birth and the subsequent struggle with health problems made this child very dear to me.
The little girl was named Evvie, short for Evelyn. Which is my mom's name, by coincidence. Mom died a few years back, soon enough I still get misty this time of year. Today is her birthday, she would have been 87. I know dad misses her. I wanted to go see him today, but I can't make the walk (insert usual list of physical complaints). So, I am sad and weepy on two counts. Evvie and Evelyn and Dad. Three?
If I believed in an afterlife and heaven and all that, I could say something mushy about Mom looking after the newest little angel. But I don't. But I could see it, Mom would be right there for her.
Ah hell.
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
New Year, new blog, I still won't blog daily.
Trip to Hawaii and a Happy Happy Birthday.
High blood pressure and triglycerides and my Wii Fit Plus.
House sitters behaving badly.
Walking to the podiatrist.
So there you have the content of my blogs which are floating around in my head and which I do not want to write at this time, but will soonly.
Happy Freaking New Year.