Why does the world march on and I just stay stuck here? I do daily chores, although some better than others. I avoid the yard, and it really, really needs tending. My excuse has been rain. I did get some of the leaves bagged up, but there is so much more. I cannot pay the kid to mow because I have no cash.
I did finish one of the paintings I had begun before Larry became so ill. The second one is very nearly there. That's something. Been spending a lot of time in front of screens, watching Marvel movies, Deadpool, random crap. TWD and Survivor and American Gods. I still feel empty. Not sure how much I can care. GOT is back soon. Meh. Still haven't done the Affidavit. I did empty out the drawer and medicine cabinet a little more. I feel less hoardery now.
I stopped the Meloxicam. It got worse and worse. My blood pressure was up to 140/99. Not cool at all.
I miss Larry intensely now. I want a hug. I want him bustling out back, making our home nice. I want to feel his warmth, to listen to his breathing at night. I used to do that, wake up and just listen to him existing next to me. Now it is so quiet. Sometimes I wake up the kittens so I can hear them purr.
I did finish one of the paintings I had begun before Larry became so ill. The second one is very nearly there. That's something. Been spending a lot of time in front of screens, watching Marvel movies, Deadpool, random crap. TWD and Survivor and American Gods. I still feel empty. Not sure how much I can care. GOT is back soon. Meh. Still haven't done the Affidavit. I did empty out the drawer and medicine cabinet a little more. I feel less hoardery now.
I stopped the Meloxicam. It got worse and worse. My blood pressure was up to 140/99. Not cool at all.
I miss Larry intensely now. I want a hug. I want him bustling out back, making our home nice. I want to feel his warmth, to listen to his breathing at night. I used to do that, wake up and just listen to him existing next to me. Now it is so quiet. Sometimes I wake up the kittens so I can hear them purr.
