One day at a time.

Talked to Larry today. The docs adjusted Kim's meds to relieve the blood/brain problem. She was alert when he went in to see her, so that is great. There will be an MRI soon to see if the cancer has spread to her brain or if there's another issue. But today was a good day. Some times that is all you can ask for.

I told him to take his nieces to Hot Topic and buy them B-Day gifts. Two of them are turning 13! And a un-B-Day gift for the third one.

Damn Cancer

Improvement? An illusion.

I don't check my emails at night and have been having kinks in my wifi. I checked this morning. Kim has very much taken a turn for the worse. She's not been eating, and they cannot feed her via an IV as that only feeds the cancer cells. She cannot get up or turn over by herself, far too weak to consider more chemo. Tom, her husband, says she got much worse last night. She barely acknowledges the presence of visitors, and cannot talk beyond a quiet grunt. Her cognition is not what it should be, not even considering the pain meds.

MyLarry went to work this morning to talk to his dispatcher. That's when I read the email concerning Kim's turn. I called, we got him on a flight as soon as we could. He grabbed his pack from the truck, and tossed in a few clothes, he's traveling in his Central work shirt and clothes! (Plus, Yikes on same day fares). His sister Wendy will pick him up in Ohio adn they will drive to WV. I see there is a big storm rolling through, but Larry is a professional driver, he can plow through anything. The planes? who knows? I do hope they make it before Kim passes. She could leave us any moment now.

Kim is six months older than I am. She has an 11 year old daughter, and a loving husband. How terrible for all of them, for all of us.

I had to stay behind because I was up here in Ogden, and truly we can't really afford this unexpected trip. Oh, we can pay for it, and all our bills will be paid, but it is a crunch. Larry will lose a week of pay, and we have the Hawaii bills due now. Crap, huh? And if there is a funeral, we likely will not be able to attend. Which I mind for the family, but not for the funeral itself. I abhor funerals. Too, too many in my life these past ten years.

Improvement.

Kim is slightly better. Many thanks for all prayers and healing thoughts for her. I'll know more later today or tomorrow.

Cancer is Eating my Family, Part Deux

MyLarry is near Tacoma, WA. with a load of steel. By DOT regulations, he has to stop at the 11 hour mark, so that's a two day trip out and two days back.

Last night he got a call from his little sister, Aletha. Kim, his big sister, is still in the hospital. She has ovarian cancer, and has had complications from the surgeries. her intestines are twisted and not healing properly, there are tumors pinching under her kidneys. she isn't passing waste, either solid or liquid, it is all backing up. The doctors have done a couple surgeries, but she needs more, and is too fragile to handle it. She'd die. The cancer needs to be treated with chemo, soon. She is too fragile for chemo, she'd die. If she can't pass waste and process the toxins, she will die.

Crap.

Cancer sucks.

Aletha told Larry he should get on a plane if he wants to see Kim, but that isn't possible right this minute. I don't know if I should go too. I want to support him, but I also don't want to detract from his visit focused on his family.

Crap.

Crap, crap, crap.

Not so Happy Birthday

No, my birthday in Hawaii was most excellent. Best one in years, right after the 51 hour party.

A friend's sister lost her little baby girl early this morning. An online friend, but one whom I have been communicating with for several years now. I interact with her more than I do with family. Watching the pregnancy, the excitement, the birth and the subsequent struggle with health problems made this child very dear to me.

The little girl was named Evvie, short for Evelyn. Which is my mom's name, by coincidence. Mom died a few years back, soon enough I still get misty this time of year. Today is her birthday, she would have been 87. I know dad misses her. I wanted to go see him today, but I can't make the walk (insert usual list of physical complaints). So, I am sad and weepy on two counts. Evvie and Evelyn and Dad. Three?

If I believed in an afterlife and heaven and all that, I could say something mushy about Mom looking after the newest little angel. But I don't. But I could see it, Mom would be right there for her.

Ah hell.

New Year, new blog, I still won't blog daily.

Preview:

Trip to Hawaii and a Happy Happy Birthday.

High blood pressure and triglycerides and my Wii Fit Plus.

House sitters behaving badly.

Walking to the podiatrist.

So there you have the content of my blogs which are floating around in my head and which I do not want to write at this time, but will soonly.

Happy Freaking New Year.

Santa Rampage 09

Mrs. Claus, you've been very naughty! Actually, guys and gals responded strongly to me, to the point I was getting hugged and petted and patted. I told the girls they'd get lingerie for being naughty... Oh. My. Goodness. They ALL proceeded to show me how naughty they could get. Wowza. Larry and Nate were so jealous!!!